Ciao.
Come Sta?
Non parlo
italiano, ma posso provare.
Io sono solo
una ragazza, che ha amato e perduto.
Godere.
As you can
see I have been trying with the ‘Italian’ been figuring out the basics. It is
quite a beautiful little language; I think I’d like to try learning Latin too.
This week I have
learned that I need to just stop thinking so much! I used to think that being a
deep thinker was a good thing, a great quality to have, but it just doesn't suit
me. I need to stop caring so much about everyone and everything. I carry too
much on my shoulders and at this age that’s not a good thing. If someone hurts
me I have the tendency to want to try and fix them and the situation. I need to
learn to walk away and let go. I’m not saying I am going to turn into a cold
version of myself that would be impossible; I have too much heart for that, But
I do need to learn to keep my guard up and not give someone my everything
again. I know that time is a healer, but you have to make your own decisions
and only you can make changes, I have to decide to let go of things, I can’t
just expect them to disappear by themselves over time.
When you get
your heart broken, you get wiser, you learn to protect yourself and you build a
layer around your heart. You get stronger. I will not make the same mistakes
again and I guess I am just tougher now, you have to be. When bad things happen
or you get hurt by someone you love, at first you feel like you can’t function
properly, everything you believed comes crashing down and you have to reinvent
yourself, you have to recreate a path to follow. The future you thought you had
no longer exists, it’s scary. You have to dream up a new future and focus on
living that one day at a time. You can follow all the advice in the world, but
only you can fix how you feel, and that will happen when you start loving yourself
again and finding who you are again.
The last
couple of weeks I have been finding myself again, and thinking about what I want.
It has been liberating, and it’s going to be a long process, this is just the
start of so much more to come and for the first time in a very long time I have
hope and am excited about the journeys to come.
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