So.. A month ago, i was a mess.. I had to change my whole life around, move home, change my routine, lost my relationship. It felt as if i had gone back 4 years in my life.. and i technically did. I had to go back to square one, it was as if the 4 years of being in a relationship no longer existed, and i had jumped back in time. I wont lie, at first i was a state, which is most likely normal. But then soon enough, the tears stopped, the anxiety decreased and now one month on.. I am a different person. The fact is.. I'm probably not a different person... I'm probably just ME AGAIN. When i was in a relationship i was probably THE DIFFERENT PERSON.
This last week has shown the most dramatic changes. I am actually happy.. I laugh, smile, i have been non-stop busy, and my past relationship hardly crosses my mind like it used to. It is amazing what you can do when you put your mind on it, it's all about positive thinking. I have found my old friends again and got closer to my current ones, and it makes me think about how much time i did waste in the last four years, i would never make the same mistakes again. This whole process has taught me so much about myself, and i am stronger and wiser then ever. Some things in life are not meant to be, especially if the person you love doesn't love you properly.. If someone can't see how special you are, drop them out your life, it just isn't worth the heartache, you could be so much happier alone, and i know sometimes it doesn't seem like it. Too many people stay in dying relationships just because they are scared of being alone, and they don't realize they are already alone in their relationship.
So for anyone who has just come out of a relationship or is currently in the midst of heartbreak.. then keep strong and keep going, it wont be easy... but in time you will start to smile again, and it will get better and you might even look back and be so happy that you got out of that relationship that just wasn't making you happy.
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